1. When were you happiest?

July 6th, 2007.

2. What is your greatest fear?

That I’ll be alone.

3. What is your earliest memory?

Four years old, the day my newborn little sister was brought home.

4. Which living person do you most admire, and why?

My mom, because she’s the strongest person I know.

5. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

Procrastination.

6. What is the trait you most deplore in others?

Duplicity.

7. What was your most embarrassing moment?

Something only Kristiina knows about.

8. Aside from a property, what’s the most expensive thing you’ve bought? 

My car.

9. What is your most treasured possession?

My laptop.

10. What makes you depressed?

Estonia’s dark winters.

11. What do you most dislike about your appearance?

Nose.

12. What is your most unappealing habit?

Smoking.

13. What would be your fancy dress costume of choice?

A radish.

14. What is your guiltiest pleasure?

Hell, I don’t know.. porn?

15. What do you owe your parents?

Everything.

16. To whom would you most like to say sorry, and why?

A priest in my old neighbourhood for a drunken teenage prank gone too far.

17. What does love feel like?

Like life suddenly makes sense for the first time.

18. What or who is the love of your life?

Kristiina.

19. What is your favourite smell?

The way the air smells when spring is just about to arrive.

20. Have you ever said “I love you” and not meant it?

No.

21. Which living person do you most despise, and why?

That’s a long fucking list. Off the top of my head, monsieur Savisaar for exhibiting the trait mentioned in answer #6.

22. What is the worst job you’ve done?

Trying to teach computer science to kids my own age (I was 17). The operative word here is trying.

23. What has been your biggest disappointment?

Me.

24. If you could edit your past, what would you change?

I wouldn’t.

25. If you could go back in time, where would you go?

Age of the Dinosaurs.

26. How do you relax?

Jogging.

27. How often do you have sex?

I’ve had to throw away condoms because they passed their use-by date.

28. What is the closest you’ve come to death?

Not counting close shaves in traffic, a bout of meningococcus as a kid.

29. What single thing would improve the quality of your life?

A million dollars would be nice.

30. What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Winning the Ajujaht 2007 business plan competition.

31. What is the most important lesson life has taught you?

You’re going to regret some things anyway, so make them the things you failed at, not the things you never tried.

32. Tell us a secret.

It actually wasn’t broken when I got there.

(Questions lifted from here)

Life never turns out the way you expected.

You grow older and you keep discovering new things. You discover your own abilities and limits.

You discover you are able to love someone completely. You’ve been hearing about it all your life, but you don’t understand it until you find yourself willing to die for someone and mean it wholeheartedly.

You discover you aren’t as in control of your own emotions as you thought you were. All your life you’ve thought you were behind the wheel, until one day you try to make a left turn and the controls won’t respond. You’re not driving alone anymore. And you finally understand the phrase “no man is an island”.

I jumped out. Now I’m standing on the side of the road, trying to remember how to walk.

“If you want to be given everything, give everything up…”